pessimism, cynicism, ADHD coping
My entire life has been a series of crushing realizations that something I believed was important was a lie. The pandemic was the final straw of my optimism in tech and science. I still find both interesting and valuable, but neither can save us on their own.
When I'm in need of a little extra motivation, out of habit I reach to that idea that my actions matter, but now I find nothing there. I reach for the crutch and find nothing but emptiness.