mh-, trans surgery
A big thing that's holding me back from getting gender affirming surgery is my own insecurity and loneliness.
I want bottom surgery and top surgery, but part of the reason is that I want to *share* those parts of me with someone else.
I worry that I'll put myself through those things and come out the other side just as flawed and incapable of forming a relationship and it'll all be pointless suffering.
Why bother at all when I'll be just as alone and lonely as I am now?