I wish I wasn't so depressed all the fucking time. I wish I actually had motivation to achieve something instead of only doing the minimum necessary to get by.
The state of the world doesn't help, but it's also not the excuse. I'm pretty sure I'd be depressed even if things were improving.
The only time I feel alive anymore is when I do astrophotography. I'm glad I at least have that, but it's still a struggle most days to keep going.