I'm not trying to be depressing. I'm actually in a decent mood today. It's just a lot to deal with sometimes.
I had a long emotional breakdown with my mom last night over this. It was cathartic to let it out, but I still don't know how to get past it. It's a choice I'm making to stay angry, and I struggle to choose something else instead. I don't even know what that "something else" is. It's hard to unsee things.