You might ask what exactly I'm waiting for, or more specifically, what I'm so anxious about happening if I stop waiting?
I'm worried about being emotionally ambushed by the election results or some piece of election news — and I mean that in either direction. I'm worried if I stop waiting and let myself do normal stuff, I'll unintentionally make myself emotionally vulnerable, and some piece of news will filter into my little bubble and hit me like a ton of bricks. It's just hypervigilance.