In many ways, I know who I am. There is a consistent pattern there, but it's as if I constantly forget what it is. The signal gets buried in the noise. I lose lock on the carrier frequency and start drifting.
I wish I had a totem to remind me of who I am and help bring me back. Something tangible and robust. Sometimes I think I should just literally tattoo a meaningful phrase on my arm to make sure I never forget. Maybe something like the words above.